Sometimes you need a sign

This last week has been a hard one. Not sure why. Nothing major happened. And lots of what happened was good, but for some reason, it has felt like a struggle. I suppose that that is how life works. Sometimes everything is smooth sailing and appears effortless and sometimes, you run out of steam and just getting out of bed feels like work.

I was really excited when I finally decided to take this trip to Italy - I am not known for being one to spend money on myself. Now that I no longer have a regular paycheck, it makes those spending decisions all the much harder. So making this decision to take this trip has been hard. When you work a 9 to 5, there is never time to do the traveling you want. When you work as I do now, there isn't money to do the traveling you want. But life is too short to live in purgatory. It is too precious to not be cherished and it is our duty to enjoy life every day.

So why the dilemma? I am not a risk taker -I take very calculated, planned out risks and I always look to mitigate the possible pitfalls before they arise. So planning this trip is strife with challenges for me. I have to remind myself daily that I deserve to enjoy life; that I deserve to be able to play and have fun and to live a life of abundance. Somehow its not a natural thought. So this last week, pushed me against a wall. I went into a sense of self doubt that perhaps this trip was too big for me right now. I thought maybe I should be focused on growing my business and not taking something on that would cause me to lose the momentum that I have been building. And then I filed my taxes . . . I know at first glance that filing ones taxes does not appear to be a good thing. But for me, it was exactly what I needed. It allowed me to take a deep look at my financial situation as a business owner - it allowed me to understand what I really need to survive on and how creative I can be to get there. It allowed me to understand that I am destined to be successful in my business, so long as I stay true to myself and my vision. It allowed me to know that I deserve to be happy and to follow my dreams.

Yesterday, I got a sign - a big beautiful sign that life is good, that success comes in many packages and best of all, that I am on the right path.